Keep running

I took about a month off. Crazy work hours left little time and energy. Then a strange thing happened, I started to develop an anxiety about running. Building up the desire to go then the failure of not going, the anticipation of it being difficult and being sore after. I spent more time talking and thinking about my desire to run, my need to run than actually wanting to run.

So I had little to no hope for Saturday's MDRA 4 mile race. I hadn't run in almost a month. But that didn't stop me. I arranged to carpool to ensure I'd actually follow through with this run. And I'm so glad that I did!

I can honestly say for the first time in a while I had fun running. I basked in the splendor of the "warm" spring sunshine (you can count a 38 degree day as warm here in MN!). I listened to my music and just let go. I didn't worry about time, hills, pace, the other runners. I couldn't access my phone to check it so I just let my legs carry me on and it was everything I wanted and more. This is the running I've missed.

Here's a picture of me listening to my music before and getting psyched up to run:

Yes. I wore a Cookie Monster T-shirt. While most runners there were in serious gear, lots of black, I choose to wear bright colorful happy clothes. If I hadn't opted for the cookie monster, it would have been penguins. Life is too short to take yourself too seriously.  :)

Moment of clarity

I love yoga. My body stretches and rejoices in increasing flexibility.

I like slow, gentle yoga. I don't like aggressive vinyasa. I like breathing, settling into poses. I don't like feeling the pressure to push myself into poses quickly and abruptly. The potential for injury when I do is just too great.

I love the moments of clarity it provides too. The zen follows me through the day.

Busy Girl...

For 2 weeks I will have effectively worked all three jobs at the same time.... Yeah, now I know why that idea was never meant to last! What a terrible terrible stupid idea!?!

I'm going to be working about a month straight with no days off. But this is the last week I'm juggling the bank and going to two jobs in the same day.

Anyway, not much else going on. It's been a rough past week at the lab with lots of test failures/issues but today I finally got reprieve and stuff worked!

other than work, seriously there hasn't been time for anything else!

Highlights:
* Auto Show! Sat in a $120,000 Audi and a $90,000 BMW M5. For the most part, vehicles I was inclined to like, I liked. Vehicles I was inclined to not be impressed with, I was't.

* I really am having fun being back at the coffeeshop. It's a fun outlet and once I figure out the balance, i'm looking forward to keeping it!

New Obsessions:
* Music: Justin Timberlake "Mirrors"; Tame Impala "Elephant"

TV show hangover

This has happened to me with books too. Where the show or book ends and you can't stop being in their universe. I'm obsessed. Need to find a new story so I can get my head out! I have at least 6 months before this tv show comes back on and I'm going to paint myself into a mental corner or wind up watching the whole series a few times over... GAH!

Where have I been?

For many I am omnipresent, it's like I never left. For most, I've fallen off the face of the earth. The drawback to 2nd shift is the socialization that could normally be spread throughout the week must be condensed.

Also I'll admit, I've been selfish. I've made the conscious decision to focus on myself and immersing myself completely into work. I'm actively working all three places right now, though that will be coming to a close after next week as I close the chapter on my life in the banking industry. Last week, I realized I was ready and the universe responded with a new employee filling my place as of March 11th.

I had my first shifts at the coffeeshop in 2 months and it was fun. While I accept every shift won't be fun and right now it's new and exciting again, I've been given the perspective change of being there because I WANT to, not because I HAVE to in order to stay afloat. Its a fun job and ultimately I want to make extra money while I can and of course keep my discount. It's not the dumbest reason to stay. It would only be dumb if I were miserable and I'm not. I have the power now to leave when it stops being good.

Right now, working so much is hard, but life is pretty damn good. I'm happy happy happy. I feel a light in my eyes that had been dimmed. I'm continuing to get better at my job and learn and able to pay my bills. This is one of those times in life where I'm bound and determined to enjoy the ride.