And we figured out today that one of our trees is rapidly dying, so now we get to have that removed. It needs to be removed so we can continue our retaining wall project. Better to get it out of the way before we put in the wall..... unfortunately, that costs money.
*sigh
Monday, May 31, 2010
The circle of crap continues
Not only have I been out of work for a year, I had to reapply for benefits.
Future Benefit estimate: $0.00. You read that correctly --ZERO. right now I'm just left to hope that they determine otherwise and give me benefits, otherwise things around here are entering worst case scenario and going to get ugly while I frantically search for anything that will take me, increase my hours at my coffee shop to full time + start picking up at any store that'll take me. As I pay off the stuff I owe on and cut every expense I can to the absolute minimum. I won't know anything til Wednesday or Thursday so for the next 3 days I get to sit and worry.... awesome.
Wedding planning is officially on hold til further notice.
I want to cry, scream, throw things. ... mainly because of the 2nd paragraph--- not because of putting wedding planning on hold. I'm mad about that, but I'm in defcon 5 panic mode here. I was FINALLY starting to feel ahead of things too.
Seriously, who do I have to sleep with to get a job???
Oh yeah, and because I was a transferred in to my community college already having a bachelors degree and 138 credits that I'm not worthy of financial aid because those 138 + credits are more than 150% of the credits required for the program I applied for. It's been suspended. I have to appeal to get it reinstated for fall.
Can I catch a break? Because I feel like karma's bitch right now. What in the hell happened to my life?
Future Benefit estimate: $0.00. You read that correctly --ZERO. right now I'm just left to hope that they determine otherwise and give me benefits, otherwise things around here are entering worst case scenario and going to get ugly while I frantically search for anything that will take me, increase my hours at my coffee shop to full time + start picking up at any store that'll take me. As I pay off the stuff I owe on and cut every expense I can to the absolute minimum. I won't know anything til Wednesday or Thursday so for the next 3 days I get to sit and worry.... awesome.
Wedding planning is officially on hold til further notice.
I want to cry, scream, throw things. ... mainly because of the 2nd paragraph--- not because of putting wedding planning on hold. I'm mad about that, but I'm in defcon 5 panic mode here. I was FINALLY starting to feel ahead of things too.
Seriously, who do I have to sleep with to get a job???
Oh yeah, and because I was a transferred in to my community college already having a bachelors degree and 138 credits that I'm not worthy of financial aid because those 138 + credits are more than 150% of the credits required for the program I applied for. It's been suspended. I have to appeal to get it reinstated for fall.
Can I catch a break? Because I feel like karma's bitch right now. What in the hell happened to my life?
Saturday, May 29, 2010
When did I go out of style?
As a teenager, I was about as far from fashionable as one could get. I mostly wore baggy t shirts and jeans. I was lucky if I did my hair. Thinking back, I was probably the Ally Sheedy character from the Breakfast Club --if you had to put me in a category.
Over the course of my college years, I gained confidence and began to be much more fashionable. I went from having an almost empty closet to an overflowing one.
Currently I've amassed a great selection of business casual and work clothes. Over the last year, they've sat in closet collecting dust as I haven't needed them. As a result, I now have a ton of t-shirts and boring/conservative tops, a dwindling supply of jeans and 1 pair of khaki capris. My options decrease substantially when it gets warm out. So even if I want to dress nicely, I can't really do with it without winding up overdressed or underdressed. My go to outfit is a light blue tshirt with multi color penguins on it paired with aforementioned cargo capris..... Next to better dressed people my age, I feel like I look frumpy.
Tonight, I engaged in some much needed solo retail therapy. I wound up getting 2 pairs of bermuda shorts -- 1 turquoise plaid!!!! and 1 grey --(WHOA! Big leap. I can't remember the last time I wore shorts, let alone plaid ones) and 3 shirts - two tank tops and a tunic. I tried on way more than that to find the stuff I did.
I can't wait to wear it all!
Over the course of my college years, I gained confidence and began to be much more fashionable. I went from having an almost empty closet to an overflowing one.
Currently I've amassed a great selection of business casual and work clothes. Over the last year, they've sat in closet collecting dust as I haven't needed them. As a result, I now have a ton of t-shirts and boring/conservative tops, a dwindling supply of jeans and 1 pair of khaki capris. My options decrease substantially when it gets warm out. So even if I want to dress nicely, I can't really do with it without winding up overdressed or underdressed. My go to outfit is a light blue tshirt with multi color penguins on it paired with aforementioned cargo capris..... Next to better dressed people my age, I feel like I look frumpy.
Tonight, I engaged in some much needed solo retail therapy. I wound up getting 2 pairs of bermuda shorts -- 1 turquoise plaid!!!! and 1 grey --(WHOA! Big leap. I can't remember the last time I wore shorts, let alone plaid ones) and 3 shirts - two tank tops and a tunic. I tried on way more than that to find the stuff I did.
I can't wait to wear it all!
Friday, May 28, 2010
Stupid congestion
It's a beautiful day. I want to go exercise, but this stupid congestion is hanging on and zapping my energy. Even though I'm getting better, I still feel like those first couple days when you think you may be coming down with something (you know, you get the scratchy throat, icky taste in your mouth).
Ugh.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
90 day health challenge update
I don't know what week I'm in, but I know its supposed to be coming to a close in the next couple weeks.
I kind of lost sight of it which is sad. I couldn't even make 90 days! Shame on me. I did succeed in cutting out sugar in my coffee and for 2 months I successfully cut out pop. I fell off the wagon while I was sick but will be getting back on that one.
Exercise was my greatest failing.... But I did manage to run a 5K!
So while this one is coming to a close and I was not fully successful, I think I may undertake a new one.
I kind of lost sight of it which is sad. I couldn't even make 90 days! Shame on me. I did succeed in cutting out sugar in my coffee and for 2 months I successfully cut out pop. I fell off the wagon while I was sick but will be getting back on that one.
Exercise was my greatest failing.... But I did manage to run a 5K!
So while this one is coming to a close and I was not fully successful, I think I may undertake a new one.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
3 days off!
I have 3 whole days off! I'm not visiting my coffee shop or any other one of its brand. I'm using this time to recover from my cold and rest in general. I've needed this break because months on end of only having 1 day off at a time just wasn't cutting it! I am too nice of person and almost had to go in today. Luckily karma was on my side and the person called me back saying they no longer needed me to cover part of his shift. *insert sigh of relief!*
I really wish I was on vacation but it's either have a wedding or go on a trip at this point... actually, it's more like pay my bills or go on vacation. I guess I'll take pay my bills. :( Damn conscience....
On the meltdown front, I'm feeling slightly better about my situation, despite all the uncertainty. The knot has subsided back into it's dull ache. My weekly meltdown is complete. Although, my meltdowns are starting to increase in frequency which is not good.. What changed my attitude today? The mood lifting effects of lot's of sleep, a new hair color and beer!
And now, back to the 24 finale, and more beer. Drown knot drown!
I really wish I was on vacation but it's either have a wedding or go on a trip at this point... actually, it's more like pay my bills or go on vacation. I guess I'll take pay my bills. :( Damn conscience....
On the meltdown front, I'm feeling slightly better about my situation, despite all the uncertainty. The knot has subsided back into it's dull ache. My weekly meltdown is complete. Although, my meltdowns are starting to increase in frequency which is not good.. What changed my attitude today? The mood lifting effects of lot's of sleep, a new hair color and beer!
And now, back to the 24 finale, and more beer. Drown knot drown!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Really? It's been a year?
In 6 days, I've been out of work for a year. I've neared the end of my first extension and now they're asking me to reapply for benefits.
Despite the shining sun outside, I'm being covered by a raincloud. Let's review the last year:
May 29th, 2009: last day of full time work, spirits high that a new adventure was right around the corner.
June-August 2009: Kind of enjoyed being off because I could be outside, go to the gym, Money was still ok as I was completely blind to the money I was hemorrhaging. I deluded myself that I was living the good life cheap, but was doing anything but.
October-November 2009: I officially ran out of money. I was living with $30 in my personal bank account. I didn't think I'd be able to buy christmas gifts if things continued.
December 2009: A small light appeared when I got my part time job. It was scary to start over, but it was only temporary, right? Things were going to change soon because I couldn't possibly be out of work for a year, right? I have a bachelors degree and extensive job history. Someone has a use for me full time, right?
January -May 2010: I started taking some classes at the local community college to start trying to figure out what in the hell to do with my crumbled life. Over the course of that semester, I discovered the direction I was pursuing would only result in me being more overspecialized and in a field that it was still difficult to find jobs. So now I'm left wondering, what next?
Today: On the job hunt, I've retooled my resume several times, handcrafted it to fit every detail possible in a job description and STILL CAN'T GET A CALL BACK! Even for the jobs I was a near perfect match to begin with. I don't know what I else I can do short of tracking down the HR person and sleeping with them.
And now the icing on the cake is I have to reapply for benefits. I'm scared to do it. What if they penalize me for working part time and base my amount on my current income, not the one I lost in the first place? If they do that I'm fucked 100x over. I will have to cancel all wedding plans because I probably won't be able to pay for my mortgage. I don't know what to do anymore.
Welcome back giant knot in my stomach. How did things get so screwed up?
Despite the shining sun outside, I'm being covered by a raincloud. Let's review the last year:
May 29th, 2009: last day of full time work, spirits high that a new adventure was right around the corner.
June-August 2009: Kind of enjoyed being off because I could be outside, go to the gym, Money was still ok as I was completely blind to the money I was hemorrhaging. I deluded myself that I was living the good life cheap, but was doing anything but.
October-November 2009: I officially ran out of money. I was living with $30 in my personal bank account. I didn't think I'd be able to buy christmas gifts if things continued.
December 2009: A small light appeared when I got my part time job. It was scary to start over, but it was only temporary, right? Things were going to change soon because I couldn't possibly be out of work for a year, right? I have a bachelors degree and extensive job history. Someone has a use for me full time, right?
January -May 2010: I started taking some classes at the local community college to start trying to figure out what in the hell to do with my crumbled life. Over the course of that semester, I discovered the direction I was pursuing would only result in me being more overspecialized and in a field that it was still difficult to find jobs. So now I'm left wondering, what next?
Today: On the job hunt, I've retooled my resume several times, handcrafted it to fit every detail possible in a job description and STILL CAN'T GET A CALL BACK! Even for the jobs I was a near perfect match to begin with. I don't know what I else I can do short of tracking down the HR person and sleeping with them.
And now the icing on the cake is I have to reapply for benefits. I'm scared to do it. What if they penalize me for working part time and base my amount on my current income, not the one I lost in the first place? If they do that I'm fucked 100x over. I will have to cancel all wedding plans because I probably won't be able to pay for my mortgage. I don't know what to do anymore.
Welcome back giant knot in my stomach. How did things get so screwed up?
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