Happy 2011! -- a realization

2011 is off to a much better start, direction than 2010!

Today I realized that while I may not be doing what I set out to do, while I occasionally will feel like a failure for not having a masters or doctorate degree or some fancy title, I'm happier than I was doing lab work.

I am occasionally plagued by sleep issues, but since leaving the lab work, I am not plagued like I was before. I remember constantly fighting against the clock both in falling asleep and waking up. I remember the days when I couldn't sleep til 8am, even 10am and would oversleep for a 4pm shift. I remember dragging through every day barely able to do the minimum and feeling like a failure at the whole science thing and being mad at myself for how apathetic I was. While I still fight with waking up it has more to do with having to be into work by 5am than a general malaise I used to feel. I also remember feeling that I put  more into my coffeeshop job that I ever did into my "fancy" jobs.

Right now I've come to terms with my loss of identity because I may have found a new one. It took only a year and a half and countless rejections and someone FINALLY being willing to take a chance on me!