Support.... Where is it?

I'm really frustrated right now.

It just seems like the key person in my life who should support me, or at least show some sort of emotion/excitement has decided to check out. No, not even check out, more like nay say, change the subject or tell me I'm wasting my time. Great, huh? No, it's not my fiance doing this. It's my dear mother.

She fully supported me going to college. She even fully supported me buying a house and they still help out a lot with that. Anything I bring related to the house, she's really excited to talk about. But anything having to do with my personal life --dating, being engaged, trying to plan a wedding, trying out the Pampered Chef Consulting business is met with aforementioned disdain, disinterest or flat out dejection.

This isn't exactly a new issue either. All while dating my fiance, any time I vented or an issue came up, she's told me to cut ties and just move. When I lost my job, and to this day, she tells me to consider moving. Says that I'm being tied down. When, I'm sorry, but the whole f-ing country is a mess. My chances of finding a job out of state are just as slim as they are here.

Upon reiterating over and over again that I think I want a real wedding, not just eloping, she tells me its a waste of money and doesn't even get excited when I talked of going to see my first reception hall or ceremony site. Not exactly how I imagined wedding planning would go.

It's no wonder I've been holding out on telling her that I'd decided to become a consultant. But I figured tonight I had to finally tell her. And her first reaction was "Nooooo. Why would you want to do that?"

I normally can tell my mom anything... well almost anything.... and it feels as of late, the two big things going on in my life she seems to want nothing to do with. She doesn't even understand why I'm part of the women of today either.

It makes me sad. It makes me angry. It makes me excessively self conscious about my decisions. It just feels like I'm somehow a big disappointment in everything I'm doing now because it doesn't fit into their plan....