Thought of the day:

Really sick of the phrase, "How's the job hunt going?"

Because no one really wants to hear the answer. They aren't reassured my my chortling laugh at the very idea that I'll get a full time job again. They don't want to hear that as I approach 1 year of being unemployed I'm sinking further and further into an abyss. They don't want to hear that I've gotten used to the pit of stress from constantly worrying about money and my future. How I don't remember what it's like to work full time anymore and to not feel like I do. That my new normal is significantly diminished from my old normal.They don't want to hear that I don't know what I want to be anymore because my self confidence in my abilities and worthiness of a real job are completely shot to hell. That even if by some small miracle I actually get an interview for a job I desire, I can actually convince the interviewer I'm worthy.

No, they want to hear happy happy Me talking of wedding plans and tons of job leads and that I feel things are turning around for me. So please, refrain from asking the words, "How's the job hunt going?" because honestly, if it were going anything but miserably, I'd already have a job and we wouldn't be talking about it.

I will also remind myself to try to not use that phrase on my job hunting friends. To them, I'm sorry I've used that phrase as a conversation starter.