My No good very bad horrible day.

Horrible horrible day.

I worked 9.5 hours. ... well I got a half hour break. Yep... a whole 1/2 an hour. normal jobs you'd get 2 15's AND the 1/2 hour. Not my job. I feel like absolute crap. And I have my interview tomorrow to get ready for, a crap ton to do for the women of today and a meeting tonight which will of course take til 9:30 (that's the drawback of an organization of over 40 people who do at least 1 activity a week, if not more.. our meetings take FOREVER).

Stressed much?

Also, THIS makes me want to cry. I haven't personally seen it, but I've suspected it's been going on without written/verbal acknowledgment from HR departments. Knowing the statistics that 46% of the unemployed have been so for over 6 months just helps confirm that this. Whether you were laid off through no fault of your own, you have a sign hanging around your neck that says, "don't hire me, hell don't even look at my resume because I'm just a f* up and you don't want me". As I've said many times, maybe FIVE years ago this could be true. NOT NOW.  Take that optimism.  I believe I first read about the phenomenon on a friend's blog (I was totally going to be cool and link that post, but I can't find it and I don't have time or patience. Sorry). I didn't want to believe it was true. I wanted to believe me and my friends weren't getting through HR filters because of something we could actually change (like resume key words, etc). I wanted to believe that I was just not working hard enough/applying enough/networking enough. That's something I can control. Root of all problems -- I'm a control freak in hiding. It comes out with a vengeance and I think it's getting worse. Probably because of the big white elephant in the room that I can't control so I overcompensate......

In other news, future MIL does not like my potential timeline for the wedding day. She hates the 3 hour gap we'll have, thinks we should turn it into an afternoon meal/party out of consideration for the older adults who expect to eat within 1/2 hour of a ceremony. I could include a potentially very long rant about this but ultimately, it's over a year away so I'm trying to just drop it all from my mind. She's entitled to her opinion and that's just what it is. I'm also refraining from replying today because I'm just way too crabby and I know I'll say something I'll regret.

If you're taking bets as to when I swear I want to just call the whole thing off and elope, you're too late. I wanted to do that when shopping for a reception venue, which I ABSOLUTELY hated looking for. So far it's been the least favorite part of the process.

Ok I have 2 hours to get stuff done.