sigh

Disappointment has worn into anger. I'm just so sick of trying to hold it all together. Put that positive spin on things. Sick of looking at position after position after position. Sick of putting the effort into resumes and applications that I never hear back from. I'm sick of the fact I've been at this for over a year and a half now and all I could land was part time work and have put in probably 150 applications/resumes. Tired of reading job description after job description and trying to muster up even 1/2 excitement about it....

ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh.

And really sick of feeling like i'm one thing away from financial ruin and that my life has crapped the proverbial bed....